In These Lifestyles (Times Of The Reckless&Endangered).

  I can't remain true to myself knowing inside that I put on a smile to keep away from the questions. Only a chosen few really are sincere with concern it's all about money in this life of fake smiles, forced  laughter and disloyalties as the pages of life continue to turn. Maybe in time all that I prayed for will become clear forcing my willpower through the confusion. I'm not asking to be forgiven cause deep inside my soul I know my actions where fallacious but to be understood struggling to make a means of the tribulations I go through.

  Who would ever though I would gain control from those dark intentions that circle my mind searching for answers through my divine rhymes. I wasn't blind just could care less about the next tomorrow fed up with starving but yet I continue with begging and borrowing. 

  The aggression builds with no outlet to release the evil piercing my very soul so I can only reflect on being cruel and cold.  My attempts to restore my faith with the angels above has died suspend in hard times as I linger through the darkness praying to see a escape at the end of the lifestream. Lost in my passion with no positive thoughts to produce when the spirit is enraged seeking for a moment to be sedate and then still my blood boils and my heart quakes.


  Who really knows what the future holds where young men and women turn heartless in these hardships left to battle with the inner self. Now more then ever I  know that all is lost so I'm weary of people telling me to find hope within the cross. The miscommunication has been modified for the opulent to seek a bright circumstances while those that know suffering very well  cope with the endless misfortune living in situations to take care feeding off their lavish dreams forever in a quest to find that never dying devotion.

   Continuously in a state of animosity feeling the detrimental rage cause honestly I don't know where else to go so I hope with these poems I construct inspiration flows for generations to come through  these scriptures.  Let it be know to the creator if I'm herd cause I'm aware of your presence I'm just undecided on which way I should go cause each passing day more sinister thoughts absorb my mind frame in the end I'm the only one to blame. Freedom is what I strive for in its purest state and from never to be mislead by delusional antics living my life in vain.

 To evade these paths of corruption indulging in wicked games got my body embedded in flames then a rush overwhelmed my spirit once more being introduced by hatred frustration became. I know I will only be labeled as insane cause of my belligerent nature but living in these times its either do or die or prepare to fry to never be aligned. 

 Happiness is only a vibrant addition of desolation so I exist with a emotionless passion. Always being aware of my surroundings until the time I am reunited with my royalty where the only motive is to achieve traditional greatness to be a consistent projection of all those that continued to display all levels of intense hostility I guess I will never be truly free until I rest in peace.  

Lady Of Sin How Beautiful Is Your Agony?

Longing 4 ur kiss..not knowing that ur destructive taste would remain bitter displaying all of ur deceptiveness. Searching 4 ur touch not knowing that it would cause heart failure erasing my will 2 live and reach 4 enlightenment. After being used I feel weary it's was far 2 late all that I have invested  u have absorbed already. So inspired wanting 2 learn ur language of love only 2 be exposed 2 the sinister thoughts, tears of blood I cry, hurting, suffering from the fatal after-math.

Knowing now not 2 trust the art of seduction u mastered, praying 4 that hopeful day that the agony would b erased. The love u made 2 me was slowly taking my life from me oh so very pleasant but deadly ur touch, the hypnotizing affect from the feel of ur lips the consistent concentration I tried 2 maintain while lost within ur dream-filled eyes. When I awoken I felt ruthless knowing that I was already corrupted I had 2 go astray 2 keep my sanity.

No1 warned me they just let me go and fly blindly 2wards the agony filled summers birth. I gained my trust in the clouds, it is final my thoughts r made up its has been embedded 2 never trust, the kind intent of the heart 4 those I have encountered where not fully developed and ready 2 blossom and walk along with me 2wards the fate of eternal love.

I know ur evil and I wont fall 4 ur obstacles any longer 4 these experiences have made me stronger but also more colder no helping hand when u are stranded with no other 2 help u climb 2 the monstrosity. I will grasp 4 u only 2 just let u go and let u fall 2 ur death. Let the truth b explained especially those that fed ur hunger 2 distribute ur misery and hate,it will all finally come 2 a end the innocent souls u sacrificed will now restore their strength leaving u 2 only become weaker..let it b put 2 rest never 2 b resurrected as these days go by fighting against the sin the wicked u represent and the hell that motivated the likes of u, now let it b that u b consumed and overwhelmed in ur doom u breathed life in 2, perish by ur own greed and may u 4ever rest in peace.

A Hearts Quest.

So use 2 my agony never escaping its clutch holding on 2 my precious moments nothing seems 2 get better just another struggle. Taking precaution cause at the end of the day the fact of u hurting me has no meaning in your heart.

I'm inside bleeding looking for a meaning of why does deception has 2 touch my soul. The yelling and screams forces u 2 tell me 2 break away signifying that u are complete without me here at time I just wanna disappear and dwell in my sorrow only 2 never reappear in the radiance of this monument we have built.

I let u get close 2 my heart and all u manage 2 represent is your laughter and u show all your methods of cruelty pushing me all I want 2 do is remain free and unlock my wishes 2 fly I wanna b loved but no longer can I try my passion has died.

All u tell me 2 do is leave and never look back I wish it was so easy 2 do as u express this deep ambition. I wanna remain alone through this searching for these keys 2 release me from these locks. Grief is all I feel, I wanna gain relief from this depression and continue on with no feeling inside just wanna b emotionless cause I have no more will 2 triumph the painful ways of the heart and never again do I wanna feel happiness due 2 the love and and caring affection of any womens heart.