Beauty Knows Pain Very Well.

 My tears show the significance in the struggle, the sorrow
which was destined to me through the reign of anguish. The spilled blood shows the devotion to become the outspoken to uplift and shine vividly like the brightest of diamonds amongst the farthest galaxies and horizons.

 I was about one when I witnessed my mothers murder did not visualize it as being imprecise father told me mother has gone to visit extended family that lived in the afterlife, how very foolish of me to believe this statement......mothers soul grew within me. Fatal visions of the stabbings shattered me I grew with mystification , aggravation and desolation.

As time goes by my father starts to realize a very similar vision of my mother the beautiful radiance she would display caught his attention as I am looked upon with sinister stares.

 For I'm only thirteen trying to make peace with my self after the younger molestations. I don't know what to make of this so it continues no one to hear my plea crying praying to the creator to stop the raping.

 I feel my mother still alive in me even though the murderer stands in front of me on a regular basis now can you truly see why I have fueled so much rage it gave birth to a vindictive behavior.

Depiction of the Entity:

 These voices tell me that they see so much more in me, I was told that I can't imagine my worth I know for I am a priceless soul, driven in to the hurt. Such potential they see, never knowing of these ugly secrets hiding lacerations and scars from my always caring teachers. To ashamed to tell my comrades truly didn't know what to make of this so I was silent on the topic built an enormous anguish. I began to remember the tears and violent screams, it tortured my soul I could not cope.


Am I foolish for not speaking out the embarrassment is enough I pray beyond the stars that the creator takes me away but mothers lives within me so I know my destiny is to seek retribution for that devil committed sins and I will bring all of the fury and destruction to a end.

Mothers Entity:
I wish you would find it in your self to find some self respect find a means to live correct. Although this fight seem hopeless I march forth to glow and show you more then what you have been introduced to.

Mothers Entity:
It's a path of sorrow filled dreams I guess in the end you wish to not be treated as a queen cause thats what I see in my eyes at the same time I know your lost ,has me questioning myself why do I even try. I know love has not been a ally towards you but all is fair they say in something that represent so much beauty but can produce a never dying agony inside, is this really a hearts confessions to the inner self you know the answer to that question. Even though I know this is part of a growth process I pray that you come to your senses and realize that you are destined to blossom when the rain falls from the sky.


The situation makes me feel weary can't help but to not want to drop tears cause the fear of just trying to escape from a lust driven father that has two sides is crushing. A painful secret I can no longer bear, in my sleep I would carve sharp instruments hide them all around I could not figure the meaning of this dream.

To realize my own confusion this vision was all my reality for the possession overwhelmed me. I felt the strength of my mother flow through my veins as it felt like a chilling air embedded it's self in my skin, as we were reunited as one being. I remained motionless and my mind continued to sleep eyes wide open burning with a murderous passion glowing with a sight of dancing fire.

Blood boiling from the invested anger I felt my heart was beating ten times faster then normal. I was all conscious of this happening but my mind was controlled by memories so I was present for the thoughts of my mother the sincere and true aspects of the times we shared. The same time that I was reminiscing it felt as though I was having a nightmare and a pleasant dream at once.

 When I awoke from my sleep the next morning it appeared that my father wasn't home. I felt a sense of elation as I continued to get ready for the day. Then suddenly a powerful force grasp on my heart and literally a massive sharp pain entered my chest as I looked in the mirror my eyes begin to glow with fire. I begin to hear my mothers voice within my mind once again I whispered in a light violent tone under my breath "So destines finally become one".

 My father then entered the room looking at my eyes glow with such a striking fear and confusion for he doesn't know about the connection that mother and I have. He was so educed by his cravings for heroine he didn't think to care.  All of the sharpened objects that I carved telekinetically appeared before me for know I understand that I can control my mind with far more control.

Laughing in a demonic tone. I sensed the chills that made my fathers spine quiver he remain stuck in a trance envisioning me as my mother no words left his mouth as he was immersed in a trance.

Mothers Entity:
My love I know it wasn't your fault this seems to be a fatal mistake I can forgive you for I know your heart was filled with hate.

 As my mother consoled him in a forgiven manner because in my fathers eyes this was all in reality he wasn't even conscious of the fact that I was standing before him.

Mothers Entity:
 Why don't you resurrect me with this one kiss and soon you will no longer be ignorant to the true love I had for you and our daughter. When I arise we can restore our family values for a better tomorrow.

 Truly being mislead by something that felt and appeared so authentic he seen the reflections of my mother through me and was enticed by her voice that he remained blind to see the vindictive nature of  my mother only wanting to protect me.

 As my father approached me these sharp objects I constructed crept closer and closer the next thing I witnessed was a powerful impact of wind forcing these objects to penetrate through my fathers skin a gruesome fatality before me, as I witnessed blood fill the air writing its mark against the walls my mothers spirit hovered above his bodied and suddenly fire appeared sinking his corpse through the walls and he was never to be seen again that night.

 I woke up in pure fright not even aware of the fact that I was sleep my beloved aunts surrounded me I begin to cry because I no longer felt the presence of my mother within. Knowing she was before me in a heavenly nature and yet I felt another side of her that was a complete stranger. Everything continued to be so gloomy I am so confused by this present state.  Awakening from this dream seemed to be a deadly fate as blood stained the walls from my fathers forty five magnum witnessing ammunition shells near my pillow case.

 I woke up to the suicide of my father at least thats what the authorities told me but I don't believe that they are aware of what I have seen in my sleep how could I not wake up by the sound of a gunshot this can't be. Although I see my fathers corpse before me I'm shaken in terror I know where his souls true destination beholds beneath the concrete. There are no sight of the sharp objects I have been carving to protect my self. This matter is very unusual, as my aunts try to console me within I can't find a means to be comfortable in my own skin. Was this possession and why was this the fatal end? I see my mother momentarily seeming alive and well I just stare off not aware of my aunts and the authorities attempts to get my attention.

My aunts excuse my silence to the authorities they figured they would let me be to cope with the pain of awakening to the suicide of my father.


Mothers Entity: (Echoing Voice)

  Beloved Daughter of mine, I apologies to connect through your spirit so I know deep inside you where petrified so I could no longer let you suffer I sold my soul to become corrupted. One day we will be reunited in the heavens. Now that I know you have a second chance at life I can finally rest in peace ,I cannot express the sorrow I feel not being able to hold you close and with all the compassion in my heart it pains me that I have to leave you before I got to actually see you grow.

 Through all of this I suddenly disappear it felt as if I was in a different realm. I herd the screams of my aunts but I could only notice the reflections of the sun hitting my eyes. After these words were spoken to me I reappeared fully knowledgeable of what just happen. I was approached by both of my aunts baffled in confusion cause I believe they to herd the voice of their sister as I disappeared. The authorities down stairs shook up by my aunts screams came to the aid.

 I began to look at my aunts signaling them not to say a word for they would think we are truly foolish if we expressed all that happen in these minutes that have passed. My aunts both explained that it was them still delusional for my sake they though nothing more off it and continued to investigate.

 I feel more comfortable now that my mother has spoken to us in spirit but I think this is only the beginning but no longer do I fear this power I embrace it I knew pain very well the beauty of it was that I was blessed to escape it....

W.A.R. (World Annihilation Reaches).

 In the battlegrounds I have to be alert and one with sound the most vicious will creep and executes plots.

My obedience to the arts of war are grand applying intense degrees on my cerebral I can only meditate and attempt to be sane. Wisdom passed on to me, a process of maneuvering and switching methods of intelligence. I listen and observe being conscious seeking to embellish on the dreams I have for my loves ones to carry on finding the patience within.

Impersonators claiming when the torture commence they will be at the ready upon the frontline blind with a passion to die with no sense of morals and knowledge. I drink the blood of my enemies from this chalice not to become one with the evil but for those that opposed me will burn in the success of my elevation.

 I won't quiver in fear in the murder lands I reside within cause no matter where you stand the higher authorities have already planted their land mines in advance. My very own right for self defense is proven to be irrelevant but my though process is beyond these american laws set for my kind. I'm suppose to be passive but I refuse to not show retaliation if I don't pursue my faith the government masses won't hesitate to put me in mental strain its a must I find a way to break away from these shackles and chains.

 My only truest and deepest desires is to protect my family and loves ones from harm so I pray to resurrect my positive intentions wishing for this energy to be carried on. I stare with a blankness so if you can't relate you will see no form of progression in figuring me out. 

 For I'm beyond this universe and when my face kiss the hearse my legacy will begin in many forms of rebirth. When the devil decides to attack I'll react and snap back taking the knives the demons inflicted upon my flesh making sure I introduce unbearable strain with the very same weapons to make them feel the same anguish they relentlessly sent to me I'm promise these tarnished souls they won't be able to compete.

Lets be completely truthful about it all where in this world ever step forward you take creates another form to embrace a downfall. Living to live putting my all in something I loved was a fatal error cause when all is said and done I was covered by snakes, vicious individuals that once had compassion got  me sadistically laughing all I want is for their deaths to be tragic. 


 Never knew the most high was by my side but I continued to control all these murderous vibes inside I vow to excavate my self out the grave that was sent for me cause my spirit won't let me die without purpose I can only ascend to tranquility. In their eyes I am suppose to remain ignorant of my lineage seeking for my beginning and end. 

 But yet cause I don't comply to their religions I'm a threat they claim all we do is sin but what about survival will they then be able to commend? A child of the sun sent from the heavens with a heart burning fueled by the deception of my advisories. 

 Secrets of extraordinary factions I embrace to control my new found hate as I watch its evolution take its place. Only aggression will free me and take me to levels to escape being reformed is the plan and my motives are to desecrate for this is W.A.R. and life is only deception revealing two sides to a tale I'm promise to those that may it possible for me to breath today I will only excel.

Focus on Structure

A posture to prevail over chaos is what I pray to embrace. A new day to use the embedded hatred within, that was invested in the passing years will soon make every difficult circumstance every so clear. Reunited with the love and guidance given from my former teachers that programmed in my mind to stay astray from the corrupted preachers.

Every learning experience doesn't hold a positive appearance reaching forward knowing that the hands of time are not on my side with a dying motivation inside. I have herd the cries of the defeated sensed the failure of the misleaded I pledge aligence to my spirit and for this reason the battle cry I unleash makes all demons flee it.

Walking amongst the vivid stars soaring beyond and far above the dececption I came across that overwhelmed me. I was blinded feeling deeply that my soul was lost while engaging in evil situations,little did I know that patiences was a key attribute maintaining my meditation contemplating on ways to utilize truth I'm faced with.

AT THE READY

INTELLIGENCE IS THE GREATEST WEAPON FOR IF THEY CAN'T EVER OVER THROW YOUR TATICS HOW CAN THEY EVER OPPOSE YOU IN COMBAT?

REMAIN HEARTLESS SHOW NO MERCY UPON THOSE THAT PRACTICE THE WICKED ARTS OF TREACHERY AND NEFARIOUS ACTIONS. THIS IS WHAT I TELL MYSELF AS I ENTER THE BATTLE GROUNDS REMAINING TRUE TO MY SPIRIT ANALYZING LIFE FOR WHAT IT REALLY IS.

DEMONSTRATING A FOCUS ON REGAINING A LOST FAITH ONLY TO ANNIHILATE THOSE THAT ARE LABLED AS AUTHENTIC FAKES. MY MOTIVATION IS AWAKENING TRUTH FOR I KNOW THERE ARE BETTER TOMORROWS IN THE DISTANT HORIZON.

SOME SOULS WILL CONTINUE TO BE BLINDED BY THEIR OWN PRIDE, OTHERS WILL MAKE A MOCKERY OF THE POWER THAT IS REPRESENTED. AT LAST I MARCH FOWARD AND DISPLAY MY ATTRIBUTES ENDING ALL CONSISTENT SPECULATION. I CAN'T FOLLOW THE CORRUPTED LEADERS OF THIS NATION TO MAKE A EVERLASTING CHANGE THAT WILL BE MY NEVER DYING MISSION A POSITIVE FUTURE FOR THESE NEXT GENERATIONS THE REVENGE OF THE OPPRESSED ALL THESE VICIOUS DEVILS WILL FEEL MY REGIN.

The Progression.

Wishes stay in my mind frame, these hardships got me wondering do miracles even exist? Throughout my prayers I hope that I can come close to clarity in the fatal abyss. I know my writings will be viewed to certain individuals as suicide notes but those that value this art will see that my creations are my recordings of fighting evil on a everyday basis.

In these corrupted circumstances it's like these snakes and fakes preserver but let the truth be told authentic followers have no fear even better conquer the wicked actions of all back stabbers and those that practice the doings of the wicked art. At times I feel my heart growing weak so poetry I speak to keep the rhythm and hold on to the beat of my motivation regaining control of my emotions.

My journeys of going under assisted me in my struggles to submerge throughout trails that once looked so overwhelming. The odds of destruction depicting the failure was face to face with me. Positivity is what I grasp for battling in the hatred storms keeping in mind that true happiness will one day be born.

To sore is what I invision no longer kept in suspension of my sinister intentions that only seems to arise when my benevolence is took for granted its respect that I long for and I truly demand it on every aspect. Knowing that these demons come sideways and pledge to be never stood corrected this is what proves to make the situations I encounter every so hectic.

In these times you can't give your love to just anyone cause either you will be emotional damaged or staring at the barrel of a gun and when death comes smiling there is no other way to run. Its so clear to me now to never trust anyone cause in the end it seems their main mission and train of though is to bring you down forgetting the pleasant times you delivered.

Lost in the depths of my own agony these nightmare just become more clear. I had to obtain knowledge and keep in my mind that ones fear is only a part of someones imagination either to test you or control your every move.

Not to mention these make believe remnants of these horrific visions transmitted in to our brains activates the spark to create scare tactics. I know that it is a deeper message then to just entertain otherwise where does the ideas of this evil come about.

Minds clouded with destruction we stay in speculation of who can save us when the answer is already within only the inner self can over throw what is labeled as sin.

MY WORLDLY REFLECTIONS

The stress continues to cloud my mind I feel my patiences withering away every passing moment. I hate the fact that my soul can't control this fear cause I truly see the horror in my eyes when in the mirror. I'm steady in speculation of what my next error will be so I can quickly remove it and go forth on this journey of hatred and agony. The smoke I inhale engulfs my lungs and I commence a mental battle making all my sorrow perish within in the fires of my motivation. The motivation that keeps me alive, what a description to convey that this is my heart fighting the relentless trenches the world displays.

Cursed writings I construct learning to never fall in the foolish mind state of love because the though will only bring forth madness there is only spiritual awareness, brief admiration and personality classes. I have had it I can't no longer invision the rapture I pray to the most high to keep me in contact with my tactics as I research to escape the massess. I close my eyes and in sight are swords clashing between righteousness and evil. What is to come of all this? The crave grows stronger within I purse a life of sin to survive it has become more of a struggle to hold on to faith and posses pride. Now as you can see it has become harder for two souls to relate cause deception came in the picture turning warm hearts to cold emotions only to drown in their conditioned thoughts of commotion.

Merely going astray from the clutches of ruthless demons, their wicked hearts glow with a never dying sinister passion. Overwhelming intentions producing nothing but grief. I clear my mind to march forward to a new beginning to analyze the poisons.

I ask you when you read this am I truly insane? or do I make things clear to you throughout these meditation methods I hope to be of assistance defeating the trials of every day lifestyles of trifle encounters so that warriors male or female reach progression.

Is it really a horrid transition to reamin true and break the fatal self destruction connections? The nightmares are vivid and there is no hope to unleash a fury to destroy them if the faith is alone to conflict with the hardships.

My eyes bleeding from the murders and yet I'm going deaf from the screaming of the planet being raped of all its natural resources. The sickness growing at a epidemic rate the cause being the molestation and poverty not having any nutrition to survive these are the real life situations that are ignored on a regular basis. So now am I justified to have hatred or to have a broken heart with a military mind state, being a witness of hellish escapades. Grasping on to my morals keeping me wise forever comprehending the crave which is truly explained as the greed unlocking the corruption in a haste. My world reflections what is to come of the human race???

Continuations

I was engulfed in the smoke I look upon the horizon, demonstrating my true devotion the visions are vivid in their depiction totally a presentation of personification. Knowing knowledge its' self brings forth determination my past birthing my present feeling the presence of the ancestors before me my traditional greatness has me in a state of elation.

All trails and tribulations mean nothing for the struggle only becomes harder, just living with these depressing predicaments mother nature situations has us contemplating will existences really make it to be know in these other dimensions unknown to our minds and eyes. I hear the cries of broken hearts the sorrow can no longer be described how can one correct the acts of genocide when it arise.

I froze still no motion to be displayed felt a overwhelming power filled with hatred and rage, then I invision the torture of what my divine kind had to endure a spectacular sight of corruption and fatal sickness the fatalities and brutalities were just pointless, I mean truly senseless. In lack to give a positive description to a negative connotation, I revolt against the ways of the serpent with fangs and venom awaiting, not afraid as I stare directly in the eyes of satan.

I want those that read this to truly perceive the message I'm pitching, praying stressing to those that were called upon for eternal spiritual warfare to listen to what I have spoken. My mission is to motivate the hearts of the fallen that have been oppressed for countless years when will the freedom reign? The evil has many entities alive in the flesh and has spread in a massive progression to exterminate all followers that practice righteousness.

Feeling as though it's like a battle that can't be won at times, feeling out numbered and thinking about how the outcome could bring tears, also awaken blood shed for we fight so bravely to protect this realm by any means. Are we just a mere misconception introduce to hatred at a early dawn.


Misunderstood I know that I won't be alone for long cause I know that more individuals wish to bring change when my body is gone but my presence is still felt. The aftermath can not be in vain even if one of the protectors is slain we still live on to produce a legacy. I expect many to not comprehend the truth we shall see the purpose to live and defend what has been created only for our benefit. Take heed to this scripture as you come closer to truth and no longer fear the mental vibrations learn the art of continuations.

Internal Animations & Afflictions

Although at times I'm flirting with death my pride won't let me fail. I am only destined to soar amongst the highest peaks of the horizon all perceptions built,is what I told my sister.

Since then and after my journey was presented by thy I praised embedded me with this fate
given talent. I then displayed the overstanding of detrimental truths in grace that us beings practice on the world priceless foundations. .

Its so clear and vivid I'm so close to it that the overwhelming aura has transcended me to absolute realms to a universe that is perfection.

Only The most high could construct this, I know faith shell set me free as long as I follow those chosen to complete the focus conflicting through the tension. Carnage couldn't prevail my dedications are eternal and may my soul and essence stay within the elements of the infernal.

I know I will be labeled truly outspoken when committing life to the divine writings.

Is it incorrect of my manners for me to picture my faith as being a beautiful women that would never dear to do me wrong as I presented her with my never dying love.

My faith speaks to me in my mind throughout telepathic therapy she enlightens me with purpose to carry me astray from the anguish the torture that swallowed me. I kept her elated at all cause for that reason only that she possess the same heart that I posses where we could never part for we are truly one.


Presented by my multiple acts as they come alive one by one each exhibiting there own cause. As pleasant as my imagination can be if my face is shown deception my other is born and can only react with violence verbally at first but if pushed can elevate a eternal shattering for all obstacles and meaningless opposers, chains I break them and I unleash all fury contained against my opponent as I smile with joy in the down coming of what makes the likes of your impudence appear.


I present all in silence and in peace and will love to contribute in the rebirth of our world where all evil is banished and defense is extended knowledge no longer misunderstood for it makes us all who we are.

Your insanities purpose is different from mines true I can use my energy negatively but I use my physic to travel in between worlds as I use this Jekyll & Hyde style of literature to present a three dimensional perspective biographical analysis.

I know if I continue to tower against the choices not made by me I will not have to worry about my every growing followers that have the same visons as me to none then other complete the focus encode it transmit a path showing its regin upon the highest galaxies and suns moons and stars.

The First Thing That Comes 2 My Heart

2 grow astray from the region of murder-land my destiny is eternal love. I am the resurrection of the kings and queens of royal heavenly entities. So I'm feared cause I can communicate to my inner soul and control the situations that stand b4 me.

Consistently in a meditated state of mind let go of the rage unleash the vengeance of tortured souls upon thee who threatens my precious soul. It's a struggle in its power to survive and defend all that birth my dreams to save the unborn of the infinity galaxies, Am I speaking from my insanity? Is my moral standards here or away from me?

You have to look over the highest horizon and beyond the peak to envision and stay in tune with the creators blessings. I can no longer hear my false ego and cannot have sight of fear for I am blind from the evil that tries 2 rule me.

Intaking the adrenaline that elevated my though process to uplift the stars to have them soar and display there extravagant shine. Doesn't it make complete logic? coming to peace with the lies and fighting throughout the mighty deception. I have become quite close to sorrow in the years that have passed although I know that no matter how painful my trials are, no matter how unfair the chains of fate lock and free me as a poetic scribe I uncover the truths which connects the dotted lines of my long awaited journey that will prepare me...not only prepare but become one with my knowledge to teach and educate that importance of maintaining your purity through the brutality we see.

To restore the faith and nurture it 4 the leaders and all that stand for justice will regin their assistance the battle-cry is released there is no turning back accelerated to the present.
This the first thing that comes to me heart.....